Mo is my first friend when I came to shenzhen, she once was my colleague of different sector. Now she's gone and found a new place to work. when she was still in our comany, we always wrote to each other in english targeting to improve our written level   those emails was just like a kind of personal diary, we talked almost everything around us. we complained about anything which made us mad, we exchanged feelings towards everything including relationships between people and how to learn english well.  we encouraged each other while we felt depressed...
so good to have a true friend who can talk everything with. and now she's not here beside me any more, though we still keep in touch with each other. such a pity

here goes the emails, just a excerpt


2006-7-21

Hello MoMo

So glad to hear from you again.

But why didn't you write to me to the another mail box of mine ?  The    mail box need to be used frequently so that it cannot be canceled by the administrators. Please write to me to hotmail box OK?

I'd like to help you to improve your english. But it seems that you're  still learning Japanese right? You're such an aspirant girl. hehe......

Everybody wants to be happy in all his life but the reality is so cruel. Everybody needs to treat himself well, otherwise, life will be colorless. What a terrible image to think of if the whole life of yours is black and white!!

Make your life colorful MoMo!!!

Smile can make your face bright and make the world shining!

That's why I'm always so happy just because I live my life with hope and I always believe that tomorrow is another day. Everyday is a change for me. hehe.....

So much today.

Your truth

Joy

2006-8-1
Hi Mo,
So sleepy right now!hehe… And I really have nothing to do but still have to stay at my seat here. GOD! I'm almost breakdown Mo. I hate to work, hate to look at them, hate to face the boss and hate to talk with her. I don't know what's going on with me. But I really hate everything around me. Maybe life like this is too boring to me. I hate to live my life like this. To do the same thing everyday, to eat the same food everyday and to meet the same people everyday, just like a prisoner. Oh, kill me, god!!! I think I would be  hypochondrium if the life like this goes on and on. Who's gotta be the one to help me out of here?

I just complain about the situation we've got right now. And what do you think about this ?  I find that I used to complain so many things these days. I think that's just show my dissatisfy to the reality. Yes indeed, who's gotta be contented by less sleeping everyday,  no weekend and constant working? What's your opinion?
  
I try to make my life colorful everyday but there's always something to let you down and make you downhearted. GOD!!!

I used to think about my future when I was in the college and always dreamed that I was a free-minded girl and would be a free man and to do all the things as I liked. But reality robbed and killed my dreams and threw myself  far away  from my home and friends. Who says that the fate is under control in our own hands? But in my opinion, if one lose his or her confidence and dreams, then he or she will be nothing to control the fate. His or her fate will be controlled by other people. Once I said that I was a caged-bird and would die in despair. In fact, despair doesn't mean anything to me cos I'm an optimistic girl. I'll recover soon once get down.  But not confidence is fatal to me.

Thanks for your kindness to look at my worthless words. And sometimes I think that we're some ways alike. hehe........You looks so quiet and seems not like to speak more. But in fact, you like to talk with people  right?  Sometimes I don't like to talk with people either while I was not in mood. But most of times I'm conversable, hehe..... of course not with everybody.
Just so much today.
See you,
Joy


2006-8-5
Hi Mo,

So glad to hear from you soon.

From your letter, it reminds me that you just like Dobbi in the movie of Harry Potter. He was an eidolon and served for the family of bad black koradjis and he hated his master cos that koradji always wanted to persecute his friend-Harry Potter.  but Dobbi daren’t complain about it. If he revealed something secrets to Potter or said something bad about his master, he would punish himself  heavily because he was damned you know. You daren’t  complain about your working settlement and daren’t say anything bad about your master Boss, just like Dobbi, hahahaha.... But Dobbi got free finally , and what about you?

You just wanna show me your optimistic and energetic aspects right? That's not a complete  Mo  you know?  We’re friends !! Everybody is not a perfect unit in this world. You must believe that everybody needs to be happy, to feel sorrow, hate and love and jealousness and to show many many other feelings. That's mortal!!! I know you hate something and want to shout out your resentment. Then why not do it? I won't tell anybody else, haha....Cos I've got the same feeling just like you.

And about the words you said that you don't like to do this work and have to pretend to love it,  that's really a painful thing I think.  But I like this job cos I can practise my english and improve it. I really like to do the job which concerned about english even the environment is hard! To work here is also an experience to realize how hard the work can be and how cruel the reality is and the most important is that you can realize  how distant and offish  the relationships between people. Really a painful  and unhappy experience right? But you must taste of  it. To feel pain is one of the parts of your lifetime   
Sometimes you must force yourself to do something you dislike. That's life!!! You must  acclimatize yourself to this society  instead of  reversed you know? Wendy said to me that "the world won't stop without you!". Yes, we 're all so chickenshit!! We're just nobody!!!! As I see, you don't need to pretend to do anything  what you dislike. You  can find something good from your work cos it can teach you many . And it will be fun if you change an angle to think of it.  I mean it.!!
Just so much today.
See you!!
Joy


2006-8-10
Hey Mo,
We can make progress together cos both of us are interested in English. Hehe… So you need to write more in english no matter what you wanna say. You just need to  write down and don't stop learning whatever from which way. And I’ll never stop  learning too

In my opinion, to learn English, the precondition must be that you love it. If you don't like it or don't be interested in it, as I see, you'd better give it up
early.

So now, you must make up your mind whether you like it or not. Don't waste time on anything which is not good for you...er...I mean that you can change to learn something else which can make you feel good, hehe... Of course to learn english well  is good for anyone cos english is an international language nowadays and you can  communicate with most people in this world in english. And it's also an applied   skill for you to survive from this cruel society. It's just all my own sight of   english.

I don't know why I love english so mush. Sometimes I even feel like that english  should be my native language cos I think english is the most beautiful language in this world whatever you speak it or sing it. You know it has long been my dream to speak english just like native Americans cos I feel that American-english sounds   more mellow and beautiful than Bridge-english.

Sure I know that not everybody likes english or is interested in learning foreign languages. You can choose what kind of language you should learn. But I can only  help you with your english you know. I know little of Japanese. I even don't know  how to write Japanese letters, hehe....

Okey to let me know your decision whether to go on or to give up. It's all up to  you.
So much this time.
See you.
Joy